Sunday, April 22, 2012

一点点点点。。

好久好久没写东西了。最后一次写,应该是快一年前的事了吧。

这一年里,发生了好多好多事呢。

辞掉了新加坡的工作,跑来金保读大学。在这里生活的还不错,认识了好几个朋友,成绩不错,过着三八的宅女生活。只是,不在像以前那么疯狂了。

有点怀念以前疯狂的日子啊。。

大伯在去年十月逝世了。爸很伤心。失去了长久的伙伴,心灵的引导,让他感觉空空的。身在金保的我,无法常常回家陪他。不知家里现在是否真的一切都好?思念的心,真的恨不得立刻飞回家对他们唠叨一番。。

再这里,认识了一班男生,风格真的跟川,在爵,凯威他们很相似。让我想回以前和你们一起颠,一起笑的时光。可惜,下学期开始,又不能和他们一起上课了。有聚必有散,聚散无常啊。我会怀念和你们一起上课的开心的日子,盼我们以后有缘再联络。

大选又快降临了。时光不留人,转眼间,五年又过去了。很可惜,五年后,执政政府还是没吸取教训,还曝露了不少丑闻。慢慢的,发现自己也被反对党影响了。针对某些课题,没能理智分析状况而深感遗憾。是该让头脑清醒了,毕竟,有些事情,受过很多因素影响,不是说反了就能改变一切的。看了一位朋友的文章,稍稍点醒了我。

是的,大马教育基金,不是说废了就能废掉,它也有它的害处。大马的学生,态度和成熟度都还有待改进,不能和别的国家相比较。大马的政治,也有很多很多需要改善之处。人民的思想需要改变,不是一味的让任何政党给“洗脑”。只是,政府太腐败,是时候改变了。大马的政治,还有很长的路要走啊。。

。。。好多好多感想,却不知从何下笔。笔力,最终还是生锈啦。。。有缘再以笔相会吧hehehe^^

Monday, March 14, 2011

I Am A Malaysian

Malaysia.. What does one have to say about it?

Being a Malaysian..There are proud things to say and those really bad things as well..

Lets start with culture..Bein in Singapore opened up my eyes towards the culture here, and I feel that upbringin of the new generation in Malaysia (most) are better..I dunno whether it's just me or it's really like this, but peoplke in Malaysia is more friendly..And we respect older people.. And we're not as vain..more polite..Chinese in Malaysia (especially those brought up in Chinese primary school) have more of our own culture, our own identity compared to those in Singapore.. And life in Malaysia is less stressful.. Living in Malaysia is actually not that bad :)

BUT...Malaysian politics..haih..really..I talked abit about it with my boss today..and i sure got alot to say..haha..

Firstly, Malaysian politics is very, mind you, VERY IMMATURE!!!!!!!!!!!

Try going to the Parliament to see the debates..Politicians shouting impolite words, scolding each other like FISH..Sometimes I wonder, are they fighting between political parties or debating about social issues??? Aren't political parties, or, more specifically, POLITICIANS THAT IS CHOSEN BY PEOPLE TO DO WORK, supposed to WORK TOGETHER TO BRING A BETTER FUTURE TO THE COUNTRY, TO BRING SOLUTIONS TO PROBLEMS FACED BY THE PEOPLE????IS FIGHTING GOING TO BRING A SOLUTION OR MAKE THINGS BETTER?

HOW ARE THINGS SUPPOSED TO TURN BETTER IS A POLITICIAN CAN JUST WALK AWAY FROM THE PARLIAMENT DURING A DEBATE FOLLOWING HIS EMOTIONS?

WHY DIDNT HE BRING UP THE PEOPLE'S PROBLEMS BEFORE HE WALK AWAY,AND NOT JUST SHOUT WORDS LIKE "JANTAN"....?

It is really a laughing stock to foreign people if they see this..imagine..we chose these people to lead the country..HOW WILL IT REFLECT UPON US AS MALAYSIAN CITIZENS?

And the government is damn corrupted...I dunno if this is good or bad..Good side is, if you have money$$$$, you can solve almost everything in Malaysia..not to mention law-breaking, efficiency etc etc..Bad side is, it really affects the country status and image. And it's really unfair for people..

And..cases that haven't been solved although it's been already years..What the government would do is to drag drag drag the case until the "passion" cools, and it would probably be forgotten..Think about Altantuya's case..or Teoh Beng Hock's case..Those who died in jail (not to mention shot dead by police, beaten to death, rape cases etc etc)..Is justice served equally to all Malaysian or is it just a sweet talk? What will you feel if it happens to you and what you can do is just wait hopelessly and swallow the anger?

Malaysia is still losing intellect in various fields..especially those needed to bring wealth and improvement into the country..Example,engineering, biotechnology, business brains etc etc. What happens here is there is no NO NO equality towards intellects in the bureaucracy..They do not give the intellects the chance to show their skills, to work together with "upper level" people to find solutions. Intellects face suppresses, having to share the same pay with people of lower level education but few years senior..Most important thing is, they face alot of difficulties whn mentioning thoughts to seniors..Bureaucracy, instead of helping the system run smoothly, has become an obstacle. There is no place for engineers to claim their rights, to seek solution from when there is a problem. Best solution, work in foreign countries. At least they give better conditions, they have a better place to voice out. Not only this happens to engineers, but to other intellects as well. If Malaysian government doesn't change this, they will lose more and more in the future.

And the public transport. Haih..dun wanna talk abt it. Public transport is like FISH in Malaysia. Since the government took over the whole system, it deteriorated alot.ALOT. Inefficient.. As a result, people resort to buying cars, and it contributes to pollution. Those talks government give on going green..To the government, please think about what you can do to keep people going on buses and trains. PLEASE IMPROVE YOUR PUBLIC TRANSPORT!!! LEARN FROM YOUR NEIGHBOURING COUNTRY AT LEAST. dun spend so much on unnecessary things like useless water projects. What is the use of millions of dollars spent on drainage system when Johor and Melaka is still facing flood problems after so long?

Please, when you shout out 1Malaysia, make sure you at least do it on the surface...Dun juz sit down shout and take no action.ACTION SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.start by making your systems merit based. It helps alot you know. and dun fight within the party when you havin this slogan. How r u goin 2 uite the country when you yourselves are fighting among yourselves?DO YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE IT???

What is a government when itself cannot unite and give protection to the people?

I want a country safe to live in with minimal racism. I want a government that is clean. I want a system that is efficient. I want a transparent government system. I want justice to be served to every person in this country. I want equal rights. I want to be proud when Iexclaim "I AM A MALAYSIAN."

That is my thought as a Malaysian. Hope i dun get caught for this :)

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

in sg

im in sg now everyone :)

life's really really really busy here..alot of stress but i think im adapting 2 it :)

i went out with andrew last week on christmas day..got his advice abt wad i shud do.of course,he did it in an unexpected way,describing the details n makin me feel comfortable wit it n my decision.

to liang aka star>wad u said i got listen ok,juz didn hav enough courage until andrew said it.but i think u ard know tat haha

to andrew> thanks for ur advice..n company whn im in like heartache state.i really appreciate it ALOT :) if go genting work thn muz let me know ya

to laren> dun waste ur time on me,dun u think i've been avoiding u all this while?

to maumau>miss ur unique laugh.

to whoever who's workin or findin a job>good luck!!

Derrick aka chicken XD> i wanna go gym leh..if i got time in march can jio ppl out?

winford,ruling,kye wei,ejynn>i miss y'all,y no news???

way ming>take care,hope u get well soon :) amitabha

well..so much for the messages i wanna convey..

everybody's nice here,the colleagues r patient to teach me,boss is nice,he even gave me my first ever christmas present!!!and he's kind hearted :) one day whn i didn eat lunch he offered half of his sandwich 2 me coz i was "disappearing" haha

everybody seems 2 be stuffing me wit food n they think im thin(which is very true) but..well i've been felein nauseous since i was here..dunno y..smtimes hungry but after a few bites like full d..haix..so i think im getting thinner :( bad sign TT

2day is the day i feel not nauseous haha i finished my meals XD and i feel satisfied..i feel tat i earned my salary..Mr Yap is right i think..i think im kind of a workaholic XD well it's better thn emo all the time right Mau??XD

startin 2 cope wit stress..everybody's wishes, motivation,good will,is pushing me thru..thank y'all for tat and I LOVE Y'ALL MUACKXXXXXXXX

but of coz..i mis dad,i miss mum,i miss every single fren,i miss mum's cookin,i miss mr khoo n mr shu,i miss school, i miss my bed,,haha homesick d..

i'll be ok :)

Saturday, December 25, 2010

christmas

juz came back from singapore..at midnight..dunno wad im supposed 2 feel.confused yet somehow clear..

my mind is clear,i know wad i should do..but somehow my heart feels confused.guess i can't let myself drop down deeper..

feelin down on christmas day..haix..

to cho liang,juz how many times r u gonna apologise?i told u it's not ur fault,so stop apologising,i dun blame u :) if anyone is to blame,thn let me be the one.i fell into this,chose it myself even though i knew i ought not to.

so many ppl arnd me,so many guys,yet...haix

well..decision will be made in time..n the answer's comin up slowly..slowly becomin clear..juz wait for one word,one word (maybe 2) then it's...set??

hmm..anyway i hav 2 b optimistic.hav 2 face it strong.it's another "barrier" right?will hav many many more to come in the future,especially work n results.hope everyting wil b ok n i'll be healthy.

hmm..i guess tat's all for my recent post..hope everybody will be healthy n ok,will contact y'all n i miss y'all very much.andrew,liang,fk,tong,ejynn,soo lee,soo lin,kye wei,jj,matthew,ming ann,jeffrin etc etc etc and those who r in foreign countries as well,kinn weng,fish n others.i hope y'all r ok n happy wit life

last but not least, thanks to winford for ur wishes for christmas.appreciate the fact tat u stil rmb me after so long :) miss y'all so much :) okla,if i continue im gonna go crazy missing everyone.bb and MERRY CHRISTMAS ^.^

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Selepas Tsunami (With Mandarin Subtitles) from Pusat KOMAS on Vimeo.



I dun wanna comment anything here..juz watch and analyse before you make a choice,tat's the message :)

THIS VIDEO IS SOLELY FOR INFORMATION.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Thank u post

Today is my birthday,so i want to spend the last few moments here to express my gratitude.

Firstly,i wanna thank my parents.Thanks to mum for bringin me into the world and raise me up wit good moral values..And thanks to my dad too for educating me with facts from world and from life as well..you gave the best to me and although sometimes i've been sensitive with your words and all,i stil feel very grateful for having the chance to learn from the world and for you to provide me with a cozy home and good food..love ya

Thanks to my teachers for educating me with facts and social matters too..since daycare to kindergarten to primary to secondary to high school including tuition teachers..being able to learn from y'all,whether through the easy or the hard way,has given me so much strength and experience..

To my bro..thanks for quarreling wit me...???hahaha..life would hav been dull if i had no one to argue with..haha

thanks to my friends as well..i fell down really hard in my past and thanks to y'all for giving me a 2nd chance and enough support so i can get back on my feet again..i'm able to face myself becoz of y'all..whether you're online frens or real-life frens (especially the real life frens) i've learned so much from y'all and they made me a better person than the past,through the hard or easy way.y'all supported me through the hard times and gave me enough motivation to move on..i've learned so much life's philosophy from y'all and you made me accept myself for who i am,unique,eccentric,whatever you say.i feel more happy than b4 now wit y'all around..thx for always listening 2 me n my problems despite all ur personal agendas..you guys really are great

thanks to ppl around me,my relatives,thanks to my cousin spouse who gave birth to such a cute niece..thanks to y'all for helping me with choices and view upon the world..

thanks to all the strangers that helped me..without your help i would not hav survived so easily..even those who had passed away but left the world with such valuable information and inventions and philosophies..becoz of u we ppl can live a more comfortable life..

thanks to my enemies in the past n current enemies too..altho i dun make enemies..those who i dun like and dun like me as well,whether is openly and officially or in the dark..those who cheated n hurt me..thanks to you for exposing me to another part of this world,altho it is ugly but it is also the reality and thanks to y'all for lettin me face this and gainin a wider view towards the world in another angle..thru these i am able to learn to get up from a fall as well,with or without help.i learn to be strong as well as vulnerable..i learned to deal with things..so thank you

now more specifically i wanna thank all those ppl who remembered my bday n wished me as well..ian ivan ming ann angeline jared nigel laren liang(star)

oh!!to liang..thanks for the bday gift..not bad haha..wad's his name??and for nigel,thanks for the bday cake..secret reccipe man,not cheap..

to those who wished me i would like to thank y'all..altho i did in fb..and i would like to wish y'all a great future ahead..and be blessed with good health as well as sanity..hope y'all enjoy your life dun forget to work hard..hav a good life ahead^^ chillax

Sunday, June 20, 2010

reply to posts

Lately there are a lot of negative comments about the issue regarding legalisation of betting by the government. I kinda like the idea though. You see, with or without the legalisation,with or without the license, betting will still continue. So i think it's a better idea that they legalised it,because in our culture,we are not prohibited from doing so.

However,this move might cause social problems,or more accurately, make the problems worse,as stated by PAS during their demonstration to oppose this move.Though,i wanna remind you something, that is, gambling is there all these while,and so are the problems that co-exist,namely ceti haram,a-long etc.they will not dissapear in a short period of time. Whether you legalise betting or not they will still be there. So we can't blame the government's move for causing these problems, when we, ourselves, are the root of the problems.

Gambling or betting do not cause social problems.Failing to control ourselves does.

Tun Dr. Mahathir made a fair comment. According to Agenda Daily, he said

"Mungkin pendapat saya berbeza sedikit dengan orang lain. Sama ada lesen judi dikeluar atau tidak, judi tetap berlaku di negara kita kerana orang-orang Cina memang suka berjudi."

"Jadi kalau dia berjudi tanpa lesen, tidak ada satu cara untuk kita menentukan perjudian itu tidak berleluasa. Ini kerana judi tidak haram bagi orang Cina, tetapi haram bagi orang Islam dan orang Islam jangan berjudilah. Kalau mereka didapati berjudi tangkaplah mereka."

I agree with the statement. However,the "kerana orang-orang Cina memang suka berjudi" statement, in my opinion, can be cut off. No offense.

But i think along with this move,the government should include education as part of the package too. In fact,we're the ones who should play the role of educating those around us so that people would know better to make a wise choice,or at least control ourselves, to prevent the bad outcomes of uncontrolled betting. Although it looks ironic,but we are just doin our parts to prevent bad things from happening. Just like in some countries, drugs are prohibited but at the same time they set up centres for drug addicts to switch used syringes with new ones.It seems ironic and clashing with what they practise,like they are encouraging it in a way.But fact is, it actually helped reduce AIDS in the country.

Actually i think there are agendas more worth commenting in the government than the legalisation thing. Such as the recent idea of using RM600 million to build another Parliament building and Istana Negara. Here's a couple of photos of them i found on sites.





That is the Parliament..Now let's have a look of the National Palace





What i wanna ask is, do we actually need a new Parliament building?Not to mention of course,the national palace. I think it's enough with these majestic structures. Can't we wait until our country is richer?Those money should be used for the people,aren't they?

Why dun you use some portion of that money to help the Sarawak people instead of "making a deal with them" in the by-election?It came from our pockets anyway.

Why dun you use that money to provide or help the people in need?Or you can use it to do something for the subsidiaries about to be cut.

I just think it's too much. Just be careful so we dun end up like Greece.